Monday, December 29, 2008

Funny fact of the week.

Human foreskins discarded after circumcision are sold to biomedical companies for use in artificial skin manufacturing. One foreskin contains enough genetic material for 250,000 square feet of new skin. they are also used as a "secret" ingredient in popular anti wrinkle gels.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Post Secret sundays

" Remember that story I told you. You were the princess."

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


Who was the last male you talked to? brandon
Who is someone that can always make you laugh? brandon probably
What were you doing at 10am this morning? playing sims
What were you doing an hour ago? playing sims
Do you plan on moving within the next year? nope
Are you wearing anything on your feet? socks
What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months? second semester, my birthday
Do you remember your dreams? sometimes
Where did your last hug take place? yesterday, at church
Have you been to a baby shower? yeah
What cell phone company do you use? verizon
What color is your hair brush? uhhh which one?
Do you watch the Super Bowl? nope.
What about World Cup? nope
Do you sleep with a teddy bear? nope a panda
What is the last movie you watched? oh god......made of honor.
What movie do you think everyone should watch? Rent
What is your middle name? Bratton
Do you have your future children's names picked out? no I don't
What color is your mailbox? white.
Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? nope.
What brand is your computer printer? HP?
How many cars can fit in your driveway? 5ish
Who was your Kindergarden teacher? Mrs Ruley
Are you taller than your mom? yep
Do you have any bruises right now? yes
Are you cold right now? nope
Do any of your close friends have kids? yup, my besty has at least 4 illegitment kids.
Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now? actually yes
How many years older and younger than you are you willing to date? 2 years eigher way
What brand are your favorite jeans you own? paris blues
What is the closest red object to you? yarn
What is your favorite video game? sims 2
Do you play games on your cell phone? no
Do you look more like your mom or dad? mom
Have you ever broken a pinata? yeah
Do you have an iPod or Mp3 player? iPod
If someone doesn’t like you its probably because: i'm unapologetic.
Who was the last person in your bedroom? bethany
What are your plans for this weekend? uh nothing?
Have you ever crawled through a window? nope
Do you lose your keys often? nope, like never
How many keys are on your keychain? two
When was your last encounter with the police? i haven't had one.
Do you sing in the shower? no
Do you always wear your seatbelt in the car? yes

Friday, December 19, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

" I just wish that for one day, everyone would say exactly what they wanted to say"

Monday, December 15, 2008

Brandons asexual....

Bethany: We know why all of brandons kids are motherless, because he birthed them. He is asexual, He did himself. He does have ovaries after all.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Yay inspiration

My friend Kayla was telling me about a dilema she had ealier today. Kayla was hanging out at a friends house off campus and found herself without a ride back to campus. She called the girl across the hall from her, Michelle, for a ride. Michelle said that she wasn't doing anything, but wouldn't pick Kayla up.

There are a million reasons Michelle might have decided to not pick up kayla, it was cold, she was hanging out with other people, she had a headache, or it was simply an inconvience.

Kayla was annoyed. I figured that Kayla has three options a) to forget about it. B) hold a grudge against Michelle and refuse to help her in the future. or c) decide that it would be best for forget about the incident, and to grant the next small favor asked of her.

Beyond the story, we do the same thing as Michelle did all the time, a friend asks us for a favor, and we're hanging out with poeple, watching TV, doing homework, napping, mostly things that could be done later and we refuse to help that said friend. Mostly because it is an inconvienance of some sort. The favors we are asked of on a regular basis, a ride to someplace, a place to crash, or maybe just a listening ear, all could be an inconvience...but does that mean that we shouldn't grant these favors? No, in most cases granting these favors involves nothing more than rearranging our schedules and opening up a time slot, maybe twenty minutes to hear a friend rant about her awful suite mates, or forty minutes at the store and back with a friend, or thirty minutes picking up a friend and letting them crash on the couch for the night.

So grant the small favors we're asked of, cause there is no reason not to grant these favors, not really anyway.

Sorry if this is rambly. If its not clear let me know, but other than that, I'm out.


Saturday, December 13, 2008

Uhhhh Brandon has ovaries?

Allie: Do me a favor, don't let me have 18 kids.
Brandon: Dear Lord, please no.
Allie: At number two, kayla is cutting out my uterus.
Brandon: haha Good call, then Imma bury it, so you don't get any ideas.
Allie: Yes! Kayla will cut out the ovaries too.
Brandon: Yay! No ovaries! Tell her to get mine!
Allie: Uh..Brandon...about your ovaries.....
Brandon: Haha what? I have ovaries and a uterus too....I'm unique.
Allie: Ok so I'm assuming
that you are indeed a boy. Being a boy means you have a penis....And having a penis normally means that you don't have overies, uteri, or any other female genitals.
Brandon: Well I am a boy.

a thousand times I've failed

I'm home. Semester is over and I need to do class evaluation things before I can see my final grades..I'll get around to it.

Something I've learned recently is the power of accountability. I have a friend who is a mentor, big brother, accountability partner, whatever. Before I left for college, I gave him permission to call me out, reel me back in, when I'm about to do something stupid, or when I've already done something stupid. It's a two way street though. Because of some things this week, accountability has been practiced. And I guess the point of this vague paragraph is that accountability is important, and I encourage everyone to seek out accountability from someone. It might seem really weird, but when the right person is, for lack of a better word, policing, your actions, it feels safe, really safe. I know that not just anyone can do this, they have to jive with your personality and belief system.

I have more to say, but I'm going to bed now....cause its 3:37 am.


Monday, December 08, 2008

What would you grab?

If your house were burning down, what one thing would you grab?

Really what would you grab, not including pets or people? I know this is really cliche and kind of unplauseable, but. This question was posed to me last night and my first reaction was my laptop, cause it's the most expensive thing I own. But then Brandon made the comment in reference to his answer that nothing he had was irreplaceable.

So I really don't know what I'd grab. I mean I have a lot of stuff, a lot of nice stuff. But none of it is irreplaceable. So maybe I'd grab the jewelry my grandma gave me. I know that the jewelry could be replaced, but at the same time.... Or the picture of grandpa Pete on my wall.

Other than that I had a revelation last night. I was thinking about some stuff and just questioning I guess. So I picked up book to clear my mind or whatever, the book happened to be Lifestories by Mark Hall...aka Casting Crowns. I read the line" God, I don't need to know why. I just know that I love You and I trust You." And that hit me like a ton of bricks.

Shortly before I read that line I got a text that said "I think it's different reasons, besides it being a loaded question that I don't know the answer to, I do know that God is there." I guess I has forgotten that I don't know the big picture, and that God does. He's in control for a reason.

I gotta go eat.


Sunday, December 07, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

"I've learned to let go, to not hold on so tightly, to open at just the right moment and enjoy the light."

I think I can honestly say that I have. Maybe the real rewards happen when you take the leap of faith and let go.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Hey kids......

I've a crazy week. College campuses call it death week, cause it's review of the entire semester.

But whatever.. This week was a really big week for a lot of reasons.

A) World Aids day was monday.

B)Recovery buddies announced its newest thing. A Christmas card swap. It's open to everyone, and I think everyone should do it. See details for the Christmas card swap at the blog located here

Yeah. Thursday I applied for Camp Crosley to work as summer staff. And we'll see what happens. Yeah.

I'm watching Mulan II right now. So I'll catch you later.


Dear Bethany

Dear Bethany,
I really don't know how to tell you this but our romance is over. I think I realized it when I quoted forest gump in your closet and I saw you carve your initials into the elephant in the corner. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand how awful you are. I'm going to return your toering, but keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I was interviewed about the car you stole and that your cucumber-fetishism is weird.

Best of luck on your sex change,

Dear (someone),
I don't really know how to tell you this (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(your name)

Fill it in with these!

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my ass
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chr├ętien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - In ur bathtub
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
None – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
Fuse - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - The cut toenails
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - Your love letters to me
Other - Your Hannah Montanna underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbour’s dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Haven’t showered in a month
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Hate your cooking
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did not steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral water – I'm scratching my ass as you read this
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Italy - Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

Monday, December 01, 2008


Sunday, November 30, 2008

PostSecret Sundays

" I can never fulfill my dreams of becoming a politician because of the skeletons in my closet"


Ok so thanksgiving was last week. And I hope everyone had an amazing thanksgiving. I have really amazing friends, whom I love, lots. And to celebrate thanksgiving I’m going to talk about my amazing friends.

Dani- Where would all my clothes be if it wasn’t for you? I mean seriously. I less than three you.

Brandon- My word, where do I even start with you. First off, who else is there to tell me that my stupid ideas in regards to my bike are actually stupid? Secondly, You keep my sane, you call me out and tell me what I need to hear, you support me. We’re solid.

Bethany- Ahh my partner in crime (and by crime, I mean Recovery Buddies), what would I do without you? I wouldn’t do lots of things….like TP houses, or other fun stuff, that may or may not be legal in nature. I’ll miss you super hardcore when you leave….who else will update the list? Maybe I can con lindz into it.?

Willis- Dude, you’re like tech support without the cost. I love it. You’re amazing. You need to come visit me……I’m only 5 hours away.

My roommate, Veronica- …..Is awesome. Not just because it’s her turn to pay for pizza next time. She lets me sit on her bed and knit, and watch TV on her bed and drink her hot chocolate. And lots of other stuffs.

Also my family is amazing. I <3 them lots.

In other news….My cousin Roger is coming back from Iraq on December 20th. YAY!!!!! Maybe I’ll get down to Texas to see him, or he’ll be up in Indiana. I haven’t seen him in like 6 years, at his high school graduation. I wish him the best of luck in going back to school and raising his baby.

Friday, November 28, 2008

NEW HAIR! haircut. I love it. The back of it is short and layered. And I love it.

Thursday, November 27, 2008


"I sit at the kids table. I like this better"

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Ahhh I'm a slacker.

I'm such a slacker. I am sorry I haven't been blogging so much recently....Blame recovery buddies.

There isn't much new here. I think I might have broken a bone in my foot.....cause it hurts to walk...

Uhm other than that there really isn't anything new.


Sunday, November 16, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

"Now that I am nearly finished with grad school, All I want to be is a mail carrier in Germantown, Maryland"

Monday, November 10, 2008


Today was 26 degrees out this morning, and the sprinklers were on........Someone wanna explain that to me?

Friday, November 07, 2008

Give me the eyes to see the glorious...

1. I voted Obama.
2. I <3 basketball shorts.
3. My iPod is named Frank part 3.
4. The last movie I watched was 27 dresses.
5. My religious views are, that I love Jesus.
6. I am a psychology major.
7. I knit.
8. I don't crochet.
9. I am a youtube superstar.
10. I have an unhealthy addiction to postsecret.
11. I really love when I get quarters back from laundry.
12. My bedding is pink and grey.
13. My favorite acrylic yarn is a tie between Bernat Chunky and Caron Simply Soft.
14. Yes, I was knitting the during the entire Building 429 concert.
15. And yes The lead singer saw me.
16. The person text the most is Kayla.
17. On the weekends, I live off of easy mac and ramon.
18. I want a t-shirt that says " I am a youtube superstar"
19. My hair is perfectly straight, Oh and it doesn't frizz out.
20. I love my roommate.
22. I have a not so secret obsession with boy bands.
23. I miss making pasta with Dani.
24. I am really skilled at making fire.
25. I love music.
26. My favorite game is Apples to Apples.
27. If I were to lose my keys, I'm pretty sure that I'd lose my sanity.
28. I can fit a small child into my purse.
29. I love little kids.
30. Willis is my own personal tech support.
31. Recovery Buddies is my life.
32. I have a crazy amount of scarves.
33. I think that hope is worth more than any dollar amount.
34. I like cookies.
35. I hope I can wear my Chacos all winter long.
36. I love traveling.
37. I like free stuff.
38. I am a mac user.
39. I have my own secret stash of toilet paper.
40. It is my roommates turn to order pizza next time.
41. I love reading.
42. I prefer cats over dogs any day.
43. I think my kitty is perfect.
44. I think that football is boys chasing each others balls around a field.
45. My favorite movie of all time is Stand By Me.
46. I am hungry right now.
47. Dani says my belly button is a mile deep.
48. I can't dance.
49. My favorite place to watch TV is my roommates bed.
50. My yarn frequently sheds on my roommates bed.
51. I think it'd be cool to be in a straight jacket.
52. One day I want to skydive.
53. I like my scarves really long.
54. I love swings.
55. Accoustic worship sets are my love.
56. My close guy friends are my sanity.
57. I want hot chocolate.
58. I think smoking is gross.
59. I am a virgin.
60. I don't drink.
61. I love pedicures.
62. I crack my knuckles.
63. I base recovery buddies on my friends.
64. I am missing 4 brushes right now.
65. I love the color brown...and purple...But not together.
66. I think school books are way too expensive.
67. My favorite time of the year is Fall.
68. There is something to being cold on Christmas day.
69. My roommate eats cheerios.
70. I have a clocky.
71. I want to go bungee jumping.
72. I like colorful sharpies.
73. I'd rather be cold with blankets piled on than warm.
74. I have never died my hair.
75. I need more easy mac and Ramon.
76. I rolled my ankle while walking last week.
77. I fell off my bike while not actually riding it this week.
78. I think 77 is a fun number.
79. My room number is 444, and I think it's fun.
80. I want to see wicked.
81. I saw rent for my 18th birthday.
82. My digital camera is broked.
83. My towels are brown.
84. I have been in the wabash river.
85. I have seen more of the youth group boys than I would prefer.
86. I have no idea where my high school diploma is.
87. I don't have a passport.
89. When I order things online I obcessivly track the shipping.
90. Yarn festivals are my weakness.
91. I like mac and cheese:).
92. My favorite city is Chicago.
93. My nalgene water bottle is my best friend.
94. I am 8 times more gangster than the most gangster gangster.
95. I hate the color yellow.
96. "Whore" and " two cent gutter slut" are terms of endearment among my friends.
97. I don't like peanut butter.
98. I like black olives.
99. Cheese dip is my friend.
100. Dani and I make good pasta.
101. I wear hats all the time.
102. I have a collection of knitting books.
103. If I had a dime for everytime I have been asked " Can you teach me to crochet?" I'd be rich.
104. I have never done illegal drugs.
105. I think I'm awesome.
106. I wear boys shorts.
107. I sleep in my jeans.
108. I have two little siblings.
109. I have just recently figured out how to get movies onto my iPod.
110. My addiction is the TV show "A Haunting"
111. My roommates stepdad is a banker.
112. I wanna steal my roommates army hat.
113. My name is on everything.
114. I like crackers.
115. I like sketchers shoes.
116. I like candles.
117. I am sleepy.
118. I like colors.
119. I don't wear yellow.
120. I have fuzzy slippers

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Boobies and Voting

Uhm... so. Why do boys like boobs? I mean they are just bags of fat hanging from my chest. I really don't know why boys like boobs.

So vote today cause...well its' important. I voted....a few days ago. I wanna comment on a facebook status I saw today. "Amy is VOTING LIFE! "Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves" proverbs 31:8" Imma guess that means she is voting McCain? I don't see how the legal status of abortion will be settled in the next four years, and as far as I'm concerned it shouldn't be changed. I think that there are more important things to base my vote on than abortion, like the economy, or the war in iraq.


PostSecret Sundays

" I want to be the girl you pull into the photobooth and be a complete goofball with"

Friday, October 31, 2008

So I'm a slacker....

I've only had thirteeen posts for this month. Sorry I haven't been a blogging feind like normal.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

PostSecret Sundays

" Taking this picture, I fully realized....I'm going to marry you"


Hey kids. It's me.

So I'm terribly sorry I've been gone this week. I effed up my right wrist somehow, so I need to chill out on the blogging. But I'm going to the doctor on Monday about it. I'll keep you crazy kids posted on the status of my wrist.

But there is something I wanted to post. Something that came to me as a result of Recovery Buddies.

It is commonly agreed among the eating disorder communities that the face of eating disorders is distorted. I agree with this. Too many people don't have even basic understanding of eating disorders, or think that someone has to be emaciated. If that is the face of Eating Disorders, then we, The eating disorder community needs to be the face of change. We need to be change we want to see in eating disorder awareness. In order to be that, it means that eating disorder survivors need to go public with their stories. And to be proud of what they have overcome.


Monday, October 20, 2008

PostSecret Sundays

"My husband left me for a woman he met at a church conference. It's really fun to say."

Thursday, October 16, 2008


1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. done drugs.
1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. cut yourself.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
1. missed curfew.
2. stayed up all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than four beers in a night.
4. spent spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
1. dressed Gothic.
2. dressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed boyish.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. Cheated on a test
1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone.
5. been called a slut.
6. called someone a slut.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the same sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush.
1. consider/considered Eminem your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence
3. made out with someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10. been verbally harassed.
1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a semester final

grand total: 54

* you have less then 10.. write [im a goody good]

Monday, October 13, 2008

PostSecret Sundays

"I take the stairs to avoid elevator rides"

Yes. I do too. If I see there is someone on the elevator who is blasting music or talking on the phone I take the stairs, unless I have laundry.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

So......Whats with my bathroom?

So I'm at home...and I couldn't help but notice that there are 4 scrubbies in the bathroom...and 7 tooth brushes. Now remember that we are a 3 person household. I'm off at college most of the time. So at most two poeple use the downstairs bathroom. Yeah...I'm kinda confused.

EDIT: One of the tooth brushes in the cup does belong to Dani. The other three...we aren't so sure of .

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Funny Quote time.

My big sister*: I'm getting married day after tomorrow.
Me: Oh I forgot about that.
My big sister*: I keep forgetting too.

It is not my literal big sister, but a close friend..who might as well be my big sister.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

The science behind homosexuality.......

...Scares me shitless.

There is a lot of talk about the "gay" gene, and about heredity, and nuture, and all the different thoeries, most of which I don't care about.

Let's work with the theory of genetics. In the 50's and 60's homosexuality was treated as a mental illness and treated with pills and electroshock therapy...uhm yeah sounds painful. So fast-forward to when and if scientists can isolate the gay gene. They will be able to tell prenatal what children will be gay and what children will be straight. Will homosexuality be treated as a genetic defect? Thats one of my fears. You can be blind and deaf and still understand the "coming out" can be a very traumatic thing to do. Will genetic testing of the gay gene push poeple to come out before they are ready?

Ok so....Not that the science really matters...All that matters is that LGBT issues are here now, and we as a society need to deal with them now.


To those who have been there:

To those of you who were there for me...when it wasn't easy:

Thank you. Thank you for your words. Because you were there for me then, I can be a source of support for others now. I'm so thankful for you crazy kids, cause you had to be at least somewhat crazy to say and do what you did when you did. I love you. And am so thankful you were placed in my life when you were. You will never fully know the impact you made.


Sunday, October 05, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

"I hate when postsecrets are not in english so I can't understand them. They haunt me all week."

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Christian...and Religous.

I really hate the terms "Christian" and "Religious",for the same reasons. First I want all of my readers to do my a favor....Next time any of my amazing readers are in a christian bookstore/ coffee shop, just look around and soak in all the religious crap... t-shirts and rings and music and all kinds of garbage.

I don't want to just be "Christian." I want a relationship. I don't want to be religious. Religious to me, suggests that one just follows the rules. There is more to Jesus that following the rules.

So I believe in Jesus. I try my best to follow Him.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Stolen from my Aunt Mindy...again

So I am stealing this from my Aunt Mindy again.....

OCTOBER is Domestic Violence Awareness Month
Domestic Violence can be defined as a pattern of behavior in any relationship that is used to gain or maintain power and control over an intimate partner.
Abuse is physical, sexual, emotional, economic or psychological actions or threats of actions that influence another person. This includes any behaviors that frighten, intimidate, terrorize, manipulate, hurt, humiliate, blame, injure, or wound someone.
Domestic Violence can happen to anyone of any race, age, sexual orientation, religion or gender.
Domestic Violence affects people of all socioeconomic backgrounds and education levels.
Often - Violence is happening in a home where you least expect it... it is generally the victims pattern to 'hide' the fact that abuse is occurring... Don't close your eyes to abuse - stay aware and offer help. If you are in an abusive relationship - Save your life - and GET OUT...
if you know someone in an abusive relationship - encourage her/him to get help and to GET OUT! Help is available...TOGETHER we can END the LEGACY of ABUSE!!!
  • 1 out of 3 women ... in all of the world have been victims of Domestic Violence
  • At least 3 women are murdered everyday by their partners
  • 75% of those murders, occur in the home

  • Violence against women costs companies approx. $75 million a year in lost productivity


1. Attend upcoming events around the country.
2. Spread the word that October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month.
3. Show your PURPLE POWER! Wear Purple and pass out Purple Ribbons!
4. Help a service provider in your area. Call the Hotline to find out local organizations that support Domestic Violence 1-800-799-7233
5. Encourage others to join the Million Voices Campaign to End Domestic Violence in America.

The Million Voices Campaign is a group of people and organizations in America willing to educate, inform, and raise awareness about the problems of domestic violence and sources to help. Joining is easy and free of charge. Help us achieve the goal of ONE MILLION members by joining the Million Voices Campaign and give America a million reasons to END Domestic Violence!

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Domestic violence awareness month

So october is domestic violence abuse month, so I think I'm just going to quote my aunts post about the topic.
I have been a strong supporter of Victims of Domestic Abuse for several years - I have lived abuse and I've loved other victims who have lived domestic abuse... and in honor of my friend, Lisa Mora - who died at the hands of her abusive husband one - and in recognition of Domestic Violence Awareness - this blog a simple focus of my favorite references and websites that support victims of domestic abuse.

I encourage any person involved in an abusive situation to GET OUT - GET HELP! There IS life after abuse. You can be peaceful and happy!

National Domestic Violence Hotline
This website - and this telephone number can direct you to your local agencies that support victims of domestic violence.

National Coalition Against Domestic Violence
This is another National organization that offers a lot of valuable information - and support.

3. "The Verbally Abusive Relationship"
Patricia Evans
Patricia Evans has several books on Verbal Abuse - Domestic violence usually begins with Verbal abuse, but ends in more physical violence. A search on Amazon or at your public library on"Domestic Abuse" will direct you to many good resources.

4. "Life Strategies"
Dr. Phil McGraw
While this book isn't directly written for survivors of domestic violence - it was many of these 'Life Strategies' that helped me find my own way out of my own domestic abuse. Dr. Phil's "Life Laws" teach you principles necessary for being treated with dignity and respect.

5. Dr. Irene's Verbal Abuse Website
This site is created, owned, operated, and funded by Dr. Irene Matiatos. I believe the site has been up and running since at least 1996 - and during the worst of my roller coaster, this website gave me an avenue to voice my pain. I had personal correspondence with Dr. Irene - before and after I divorced - and her support was so eye opening and valuable to me.


Again that is from my Aunt Mindys' myspace blog...However her blogspot blog can be found here.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Quote time!

So my roommate uses a vista computer...yes you can run and scream now. And here is a funny quote from a conversation we just had.

Veronica: There are some things your mac can't do that my windows can.
Me: Yeah like get viruses.

Monday, September 29, 2008

The washing machines...

I'm down to 2 bucks in quarters.....So uh will the washing machines accept sexual favors in return for clean clothes?

Sunday, September 28, 2008

hahaha Dorm funnies pt 2

So the RA just came to the door and said that she smelled pot and asked if we had been smoking...and I don't think she knocked on anyone elses doors. Just our door. Yeah. Pretty much. And before she left she said we smell like smoke....

Yeah.....That was my funny for the evening.

And were you serously singing Brian Litteral on the phone....I love you.

Sunday Secrets

"stop hating yourself.
please get well
we miss you.

The number of boys and girls with eating disorders is increasing further."

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Dorm funnies....

Ok so on campus we have pet names for the dorms. For example my dorm, Vanderburgh is refered to as the prison by some for a couple of reasons. A) the number of doors we have to unlock to get into our rooms. and B) how freaking militaint Vandy Staff are about checking boys in and getting them checked out by midnight during the week. And if you lose the card you get when you check someone in, then you lose visitation for two weeks in all dorms.

Morris is the Motel 6, cause its the shabbiest dorm on campus.

Clark is the Hilton cause it was just renovated.

I heard a story today about a tour guide that was giving the tour and used the terms to describe the dorms. Hahaha. It made me giggle. I giggled lots. haha.


Friday, September 26, 2008


Yes yes...Dani is smart too. Dani might have been a rather large contributor to me graduating high school, just might have been though.

I found this image today.

" You are not alone. There are many of us who refuse to submit. Hope is still alive. I love you. Pass it on."

Thursday, September 25, 2008


My friend Willis is smart. He made this. Check it out.


P.R.I.D.E; People respecting individual diversity in everybody.

If the pride club can't do that, how can we expect anyone else to?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


"Inline Ironworks. Satisfaction with every erection."

Thanks Dani.

I miss....

I miss Brandon.
I miss Dani.
I miss Bethany.
I miss Grandmas snickerdootles.
I miss homemade noodles.
I miss bonfires.
I miss good hugs.
I miss you.
I miss snail mail.
I miss pedicures.
I miss sleeping til noon.
I miss henrietta.
I miss my perfect kitty.
I miss accoustic worship.
I miss camp.
I miss my knitting group.
I miss Delaney Jane.
I miss Tyler.
I miss smores.
I miss little purple froggy.
I miss worship sets.
I miss sanity.
I miss FUMCY.
I miss free pizza.
I miss your hugs.
I miss warm fuzzies.
I miss uncomplicated.
I miss April.
I miss John.
I miss Willis.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


"Remember to use birth control when nailing the underage daughter of an anti-abortion vice presidental candidate during an election year. "

Monday, September 22, 2008

Tube Race Pics....

And yes...we are aware our tube slightly resembled a penis. When we put it up in the storage closet we referred to sections of the tube as the base and the shaft. Uh yeah, we're that cool. And We did come in last place.......Pretty much. But we're proud.

Saturday, September 20, 2008


I have a challenge for all of you.....

Embrace your past and everything in it, the good the bad and the ugly. Be content with the past as it is, don't try to change it. Now fight for your future cause no one else will.

Jon Mclaughlin

...Was amazing live. And let me just say...I'd do him in a second...a nano second at that.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Guys, It's a matter of Pride....

So I just completed the tube race, which for those of you that don't know the tube race is like a mile stretch down the Wabash river, on tubes tied together. It was super cool. I was with the gay-straight alliance/Pride group. It was actually the first year that the the GSA group has ever had a float in in the race, which makes us even more awesome. We finished like second to last, but we just don't care because we had a blast. And we are damn proud of our second to last place...well it might be last. I have a couple funnies for you actually.

We all were in downtown Vincennes and I heard Tylor say " Ok guys gather around James." He was changing and we were shielding the rest of the town from seeing James' junk. It's what friends do I guess.

OK so I am going to finish up this post for I want to hit the mini street fair going down downtown, and I need to get dressed for that.


Uhhhh Awkward...So

So ten minutes ago, not even that. I'm in my dorm room chilling out, in a towel. And my roommates friend, and her friends dad walks in. And here I am thinking " oh shit....what happens now". Cause Veronica is still moving in so I didn't know if he was planning on sticking around...or what. Yeah it was awkward.


The other day I was walking back to my dorm and this kid stopped me and asked if i had a lighter...and he was coughing and just sounded ill-like. I said that I didn't smoke...and he proceeded to say while hacking up a lung..." that sucks." Really I don't think it's too bad.


Thursday, September 18, 2008

ugh today.

Today was a day. At 11 I went to get lunch. Then got a migrane, so I napped through my 12:30 class. I realized when I woke up at my ipod was nowhere to be found. So I called the dining hall it wasn't there. And it's not in my room. I turned my room upside down today. ugh.....

So freaking annoyed.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Monday, September 15, 2008

Family weekend/concert

So this weekend is family weekend, which means the dining hall will have good food.

But thats not the point of this post. I have an extra ticket to a Jon McLaughlin concert this saturday at 8, here in Vincennes and wonder if anyone is interested. I can harbor anyone interested overnight in my room.

Anyway let me know.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

"I can't believe how many poeple have the same secrets as me!"


So this weekend I went on a retreat with the campus ministries…and it was ok. It was all about politics and the election and stuff. The very last session was all about preserving the one man one woman family, ending abortion, and resisting contraceptives. Which really rubbed me the wrong way, for a lot of reasons.

I’ll start with abortion. As I have said before, I don’t think I would choose abortion, however until I have been in a situation where I found myself with an unplanned/unwanted pregnancy. I cannot judge what I would do. And because I can’t judge what I would do in that event, I can’t judge those who choose to get abortions. ‘

Same sex marriage….Ten percent of the population is gay/lesbian. I don’t see how ten percent of the population can be denied the right to get married in wedded bliss, just because they have a different sexual preference. And I know the people I spend my Thursday nights with would agree with me. For those of you that don’t know Thursday nights is the Pride/GSA meeting.

Contraceptive….Uhhh so what’s so wrong about preventing a pregnancy you don’t want in the first place? Clearly if you want kids, you aren’t on the pill/using condoms. Yeah yeah yeah I know in theory it messes with God’s will and what not. But I think that if God really wants to you have a baby, then he’ll bypass whatever contraceptive you use to try and prevent it. Some of my friends were those kinda babies.

The first speaker reminded me a whole lot of a bad lecture, in which nothing he talked about really connected. It was crazy long too. But the second speaker, a catholic, was much better. He moved around and got some audience involvement. Even if he was talking about hot button issues, on which I held a very different opinion than most of the room about

However the entire weekend was made worth it at the campfire. There is so much to be said for sitting around campfire singing worship songs. Mmmmm. And there were smores…..mmm smores. I had forgotten how awesome unaided, just a guitar and a djembe worship can be. We did that at camp. It makes me sad I had already forgotten.

I miss camp. I really miss it. I really wish I could go back in the role of a camper again. The next time I go back I’ll b a counselor, I’ll be responsible, for making sure my kids aren’t late to dinner, or to breakfast. Haha, now that is funny. Me, on time… anything? I’ll probably be late to my funeral. But that’s not the point. I spent tenish summers at camp and loved every single one. I guess I’ll always be a camp kid at heart.

In other news I am signed for the Vincennes University tube race down the Wabash river on family weekend, September 20th. It’ll be gross, cold, wet and dirty…But awesome. Haha. There is a possibility of shirtless boys, which is always a plus. Mmmm shirtless boys. But only if they have attractive abs and if they don’t, I’ll just pretend that they do.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

soooo uhhh....gimme a title.

So it's been a while since a real update.

College is good. My roommate is moving out on Monday which means I may be roommateless for up to 2 weeks. So that is cool.

At this very second I am on a retreat with the campus fellowship group thingy, and I'll withhold judgment til tomorrow. However.....It's about being a christian and your civic responsibility...aka voting. Ummm yeah. Take it how you will.

I'm about to go to bed....but I'll catch you on the flipside kids......


Friday, September 12, 2008

Inspiration-Stephen Speak

You are my inspiration in work and in play
In the verses I sing and the words that I say
You are to my life, what the sunshine is to the day
And you know that you're welcome to stay

Every candle has a match
And every Journey has a start
Every day has a sunrise
To motivate it's start
And like the cool waters flow
From the mountain spring
You are hope to my soul
That there's more than I've seen

Thursday, September 11, 2008


Chrissy Briles died tuesday early morning I think. I would have posted sooner but I have been crazy busy. In case you guys were wondering about that. Just keep praying for the family... I'm sure they need it.

I learned something tonight. That pride stands for something, maybe I'm super slow. But I'll post it anyway. People respecting individuals divsersity in everybody. I know there are a couple different ones that go around. But that is just the one I heard tonight.

I am also going to post a list of hotlines here. Click here for a more complete list.

The national hopeline- Suicide hotline 24 hours a day

National Sexual Assult Hotline- 24 hours a day



STDs -24 hours
800-342-2437 (English)
800-227-8922 (English/Spanish)
800-344-7432 (Spanish)
800-243-7889 (TTY)

Runaways- 24 hours

Alchoholism- 24 hours



Grief Support

Domestic Violence( 24 hours, english and spanish)


Eating Disorders

Ok this is it for now.
Love you all.

I still think we should have left two weeks ago...

I'm so freaking blessed. I have been working on the recovery buddies project for like a month. If you haven't checked it out you totally should. I think it's almost doubled in size. We're just so blessed. We are so surprised by other poeples reactions to it. We had no idea they would be as great as they are. Ahhh...

I have more to share...but I have the Pride meeting at 7 and I need to go eat.


My heart is yours...I need your hand in mine.

So my mommy loves me..She shipped me a sleeping bag.

So I'm going to eat now.


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

College bible study....with a 14 year old....

So I am part of this bible study right now about dating and marriage with one of the campus groups. The pastor has 3 kids.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

I need information!!

Aunt Mindy
John Chase
Holly Chase
Laura Wheeler

All of you guys. I need some information from you.
I need you to stretch out your hand and measure pinky to thumb. I need that number.
I also need your height and shoe size. If you are female and a wear mens shoes most of the time, also need to know that. And vise versa.


Monday, September 08, 2008

Haha I love english class.

I have some funnies from english class. So this sentence is in my english book
"I think that we're all mentally ill: those of us outside the asylums only hide it a little better"
We had a discussion about stephen king and horror movies today in class. From horror movies we jumped to serial killers, then from serial killers to porn. This is one of the boys opinions on nudie bars.
"Just because I do it doesn't mean i want to see everyone else doing it"
I just giggled. It was funny.


Sunday, September 07, 2008

The wall of Christmas gifts

I finished one christmas present today. I have started a wall of Christmas gifts. Only twenty more gifts to go. If you get a gift from me. You'd better be super thankful.

Chrissy Briles

I don't think I have talked about Chrissy in here yet. Chrissy is a 5th grader back home in Marion. In the spring she went to the hospital because she had an infection or something( if this is wrong please correct me). She is going home this week, to pass away at home. Pray for this family, as they surely need it. The link to the families blog is here.


PostSecret Sundays

"Our eating disorders have brought us closer than ever."

Ok so I picked this one because, as some of you know I am involved in the Recovery Buddies project. I have met several really amazing girls who are fighting back against eating disorders. The youngest is 15 and it just goes upwards from there. Their eating disorders have brought us closer.

I encourage you to bookmark the recovery buddies blog. It's fun place.


Saturday, September 06, 2008

Christmas Knitting.

K kids, I'm starting christmas knitting now. If you have any requests, make them soon. I only have 3 months. For last years Christmas I started planning in may. EEP! Between the sweater for pay, Recovery Buddies, and Christmas knitting nothing will get done. Bahaha.


Friday, September 05, 2008

Sex God- Rob Bell

I just finished Sex God by Rob Bell, who I think is a genius. And I have tabbed sections in the book I really liked so I can find them again and share them with you. And I'm going to give you a section found on page 98.

"Love is handing your heart to someone and taking the risk that they will hand it back because they don't want it. That's why it is such a crushing ache on the inside. We gave away part of ourselves and it wasn't wanted.

Love is giving away of power. When we love, we give the other person the power in the relationship. They can do what they choose. They can do what they like with our love. They can reject it, they can accept it, they can step toward us in gratitude and appreciation.

Love is a giving away. When we love we put ourselves out there. We expose ourselves, we allow ourselves to be vulnerable.

Love is giving up control. It's surrendering the desire to control the other person. The two- love and controlling power over the other person- are mutually exclusive. If we are serious about loving someone, we have to surrender all the desires within us to manipulate the relationship."

Ok kids that's it for now. I just felt like I should share that with you. I'm sure there will be more from Sex God posted up here.


I'm glad I never lived next to the water....

Busy busy busy me. Where do I start?

I got my tickets to the Jon Mclaughlin concert on the 20th. Second row bitches. Seriously kids, I'm going to marry him one day, he just doesn't know it. I think we'd have attractive children.

Today walked to the public library. And got some books. Then walked to main street. I found my way into this little gift shop. Then I walked back to the dorm. All and all I think it was like 40 blocks. And I didn't get lost.

Hmmm. What else is new. hmmm. I am crazy tired right now. So imma call myself done for now.


Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Love of the unconditional kind.

Tonight during the service I was just at the pastor was talking about gifts, the ones that come out of the blue, like right in between Christmas and your birthday. Those kind we are always wary to accept, for fear of what you might have missed to cause the other person to give you the gift in the first place. He talked about the greatest of all the gifts you can be given is unconditional love.

Now I'm am super blessed to have any amazing friend who I can tell anything to. We're totally open, about everything. Our friendship is unconditional. And I am so blessed to have that. I am so freaking thankful for that friendship.

That's just a little side note. I encourage all of you to seek out who you have unconditional love with and to invest in that relationship.

I love you,

You're a star falling out of my skys...

So I was just at the midweek worship service and the sermon was about gifts and accepting the greatest gift of all, a gift that is sometimes just so hard to accept. The gift of unconditional love from God, or even friends and family. And the preacher hit on how blessed people that have the gift of unconditional love between friends.
And I have a friend whom, we are super tight. He knows more about me than any other person. We have a good heart to heart conversation about once a week, and then midweek if needed. I so look forward to our weekly conversation. I know I can tell this guy anything, no fear of judgement, or disownment. I hope he feels the same about me. He knows more about me than any other person. I am more honest with him than any other person, ever.

The top things I am glad I brought with me...

So the top things I'm glad I brought to college with m:
My Chacos- The two days I've been here, that I didn't wear my chacos. My feet were killing me.
My iPod case-This is such a great case. Right now I have two. I prefer my old one, just cause it's a bit more broken in. I can't count the times I've dropped my ipod on unforgiving concrete, or hard tile floors. But with the case. It doesn't matter.
My Nalgene bottle- just a durable bottle. Does the job well.

Thats about it for now.
Bye kids.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008


Afraid the dam will be to annoying to use? There are some steps you can take to free your hands during oral sex. One reader said she uses scissors and a sews a dam into a pair of panties to create a dental dam holder. Any materials you use should be washable and have no sharp edges.

I stole this paragraph from this article.

But it is talking about dental dams, used for oral sex. And i just have to comment on the last sentence of that paragragh. Like you'd use something with sharp edges on/near your vulva.....Uh I wouldn't.

Anyway, thats it for now,

Monday, September 01, 2008

Post Secret Sundays( or mondays)

"All the popular kids are boring."

Sunday, August 31, 2008

You busy at 7?

Ok guys sorry that image is so stretched out. So uhh, are there enough things going on at 7 on the 2nd?

K, thats all for now.

I love you.

PS: I love when you play the guitar on the phone, it reminds me of old times. You should do it more often. I love you.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Funny Quote time!

Me to Jamie " I don't care about your vagina tingling."


So today at dinner I was complaining about move-in drama, email me or something if you want the details. But I was talking about that to my friend Jamie about that over dinner and she overheard me and she blew up and I figured I'd talk to her on monday when everyone got back. And I avoided the dorm til she left for the weekend, giving her the weekend to cool off. I get back here and everything is gone. I has no idea whats going on... at all.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Does anyone else find this funny?

This "dry" campus sells shot glasses in the school bookstore. Anyone else just find that funny?

Campus Ministrys Clarifications?

VUCM- Vincennes University Campus Ministries
CCF-Christian Campus Fellowship
CCM-Catholic Campus Ministrys.

I think this will just avoid any and all confusion.

Open the blind eyes, unlock the deaf ears.

Hear Us From Heaven

Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer
Forgive our sin
And as we call on your name
Would you make this a place
For your glory to dwell

Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near
Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are your people
Crying out in desperation

Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,
Hear us from heaven,

We sang this song tonight at the worship set for VUCM. And I just love it and I think most of my readers will too. :)


Wednesday, August 27, 2008

So uh guys?

Demo a house or play with kids? pick one?

Monday, August 25, 2008

Ahh thank god for milkcrates.

So have a few funnies from my english class.

"You know that four letter "F" word, and not fourty or fifty. Yeah, that's a fun word. That'd be a good word to do for your definition paper."- Mrs. Maple

"No, I'm Bogarting the fan. If you want a fan bring your own damn fan." Mrs. Maple

"Dell personal home computers are still an impractical purchase for many people who use computers today"-someones homework.

Now I personally think that most windows machines are an impractical purchase for many poeple. Cause they suck.

After English today I went to the nurse to get a couple vaccines. Then I ate lunch. Then I ran back to my dorm and dropped off my books. Walked to dollar general bought milk crates, and Reorganized my desk. And here is the end result.

Yep. Five milk crates.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

" I was the last person to realize how fabulously homosexual I am."

I can think of a few poeple this will be.


So today I went to the Campus Library and decided that it’s selection of fiction books sucked, so I googled directions to the public library and walked there and got my a library card and a book. And I am super proud of myself cause I didn’t get lost on my way there, and could get myself there again. YAY ME! You just take College Ave, to 7th street and follow it to 7th and Seminary St. YAY!

In other news I am actually doing laundry as I write this. Just finished all of my Speech reading go me. The pain in my side randomly comes back for those of you that care about it. But Motrin takes care of it .

And I'm ready to explode with how bad I want you back home.

You belong to Me
Grey Holiday

You run
, you hide
As tears fall from your eyes
They fall like snow
From a wounded soul
You hold inside
The hurt of great divide
The hole is starting to get old

So come back to the light
To the love, you will find
It’s been here all along
So come back to the start
And you’ll find in your heart
That you always belonged
To me

Just take the rope
I won’t let it go
Give in
We can start again
I’m life, I’m hope
And I’m ready to explode
With how bad I want you back home

You’re my daughter, you’re my son
You’re the one I long to love
And you’ve heard I chose to die
Do you know you’re the reason why?

Saturday, August 23, 2008


So two nights ago. My roomie is on the phone and I'm asleep in my bed. I sit up, with my eyes still closed, and look at her. She then apologizes for waking me up. The next time she looks over at me, I'm laying back down. And I have no recollection of this. But it's funny.

In other news, I don't have a collapsed lung. Two nights ago I also had this intense pain in my side. I woke up with it. So I went to the nurse, who told me that it could be anything from a collapsed lung to a sprain. So I went to a doctor, and it's not a collapsed lung yay! Granted he isn't sure what exactly it is, but Ibuprofen will fix me.


K I'm for now. I'm unsure what the rest of my day holds, but I'll find out.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

"I'm such a dickweed"- My father.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Recovery Buddies

Check it yo!

Oh Thank God.

So I tested out of my English 009 class, which for your information is the equivalent of 9th grade English class. So now I'm in English Comp 101, but I expected that. But my schedule is pretty much amazing. I really think the divine intervened. Here it goes.

10:00-10:50 Sociology
11:00-11:50 Speech
12:00-12:50 English

12:30-1:45 Math
2:00-3:50 Web Graphics.

k I have reading to do now.

Monday, August 18, 2008

300 things for my 300th( err 301th post)

So this is my 300th blog post. And for the 300th post I am doing a list of 300 things I am thankful for. Ok I'm not gonna lie, it's my 301th post. But suck it up. K. Here it goes

1. Love. The love of my friends and my family. And being able to love.
2. Socks. My feet would be mighty cold without them.
3. Reaching people. I love being reach people for Christ and bring hope to maybe an otherwise dark room.
4. Summer camp....Such great times.
5. Texting. :)
6. Air conditioners.
7. Family.
8. Cousins.
9. Prank wars.
10. Sharpies
11. Apple products.
12. Youth group.
13. Worship. The really great worship sets, the kind you can just feel the holy spirit filling out and pouring over you.
14. Children. I love kids. I almost love being a jungle gym too.
15. Thunderstorms. I love the pretty lightening and the thunder and the rain.
16. Bonfires, complete with book burning and fireworks.
17. Oversize Purses
18. iPod Classic.
19. Nalgene bottles that don't poison you.
20. Being inspired to be better than I am.
21. Chapstick
22. Handspun yarn.
23. Yarn Festivals.
24. Bamboo Knitting needles.
25. Headphones.
26. Photos. The ones around my room, the ones that make my smile.
27. Gangster voice mails from the whitest of the white.
28. Being Healthy
29. Late night phone calls.
30. Hoodies, warm fuzzy ones.
31. Being graduated.
32. Shooting fireworks at friends.
33. Knitting.
34. Being broken.
35. Making one year.
36. Jesus.
37. Prayers lifted up for me.
38. Hillsong.
39. Being able to pray for others.
40. Growing up :/.
41. Purple.
42. Raggers. It changed my life.
44. Calculators.
45. Posters.
46. Being able to go to concerts.
47. Filliswace.
48. Tampons.
49. Toothbrushes
50. Toothpaste.
51. Laughing.
52. Lightening bugs.
53. Cute children
54. Star bucks
55. Sleeping children
56. T-shirts
57. Caron Yarn
58. Grad Presents
59. Promise keepers.
60. Snailmailed Letters
61. Funny voicemails
62. Gmail.
63. Emails from real people.
64. Words of encouragement.
65. Perspective.
66. Chacos.
67. Instant Messengers.
68. Free Stuff.
69. Curly headed children.
70. Roommate information.
71. Facebook.
72. Blogger.
73. Mypsace.
74. Grandmas.
75 Music.
76. Bright colors
77. The number 7.
78. Cuddly Stuffed Toys.
79. Livejournal Updates.
80. Big dogs.
81. Dogs that don’t shed.
82. Neti Pots.
83. Allergy Pills
84. Books.
85. Pictures.
86. Contacts
87. Glasses
88. Socks.
89. Pedicures
90. Non-stop flights.
91. Dress up princesses.
92. Starbucks
93. Pay Per View
94. Movies.
95. Hanging out.
96. Green
97. Backstreet Boys
98. Newsboys
99. The desperation band.
100. Hand sanitizer.
101. The N
102. Mac and Cheese.
103. Blog reading.
104. Disney Princesses.
105. ‘N Sync
106. Easy plane rides.
107. Music.
108. Bright colors.
109. Naptime.
110. Hair bands.
111. Hair clips.
112. Toes.
113. Card readers that work.
114. Smiling ☺
115. Funny pictures.
116. The Little Mermaid.
117. Bad 80’s songs.
118. Church Vans.
119. Old Navy Flipflops.
120. Mississippi.
121. Missions work.
122. Cell phone batteries that work.
123. Granola Bars.
124. Bonfires.
125. Blog comments.
126. Wireless Internet.
127. Aunts.
128. Uncles.
129. Step-Uncles.
130. Feet.
131. Purple.
132. Green..
133. Danis’
134. Willis’.
135. JE’s.
136. People who comment my blog.
137. SnuggleBears.
138. Brandons’
139. Youth Pastors.
140. Move in days.
141. Being packed.
142. Being clean.
143. Paper.
144. Giggles
145. Funny Posts.
146. Love.
147. Credit.
148. Pillows.
149. Fuzzy slippers.
150. Oversize purses.
151. Care packages.
152. Yarn.
153. Command Hooks.
154. Yarn Festivals.
155. Desperation Band.
156. Kaylas’.
157. Punctuation.
158. Good grammar.
159. Text Buddies.
160. People who are still reading this.
161. Jessies.
162. Jewels.
163. Fuzzy Cats
164. Fuzzy headed big eared children.
165. Easy Flights.
166. Grandmas.
167. The life.
168. Pools.
169. Harry Potter.
170. Libraries.
171. Good Books.
172. Being a library kid.
173. Volunteer Work.
174. Good cooks.
175. Moms.
176. Money.
178. Funnies.
179. Sleeping Bags.
180. Christ-In-Action Drama Teams. (I love you)
181. Newsboys.
182. Kutless.
183. Story of the Year
184. Corys
185. Badges.
186. Scars.
187. Relief.
188. Home.
189. Rovings.
190. Sharpies.
191. Tape.
192. Adam.
193. Emily.
194. Knees.
195. Vitamin C.
196. Bloggers.
197. Dave Matthews Band
198. My Bedroom.
199. Friction and silk.
200. Crazies.
201. Panic !At the Disco.
202. Grey Holiday.
203. Health.
204. Yoga Balls.
205. Amazon.
206. Handmade Cards.
207. Yellow Card.
208. Christmas.
209. FM Static.
210. Gmail.
211. Friends.
212. Paris.
213. People named Hannah.
214. People named April.
215. Outlets.
216. Lotion.
217. Oversized hoodies.
218. Nerf Dart Guns.
219. Beffanys.
220. Fireflight.
221. BPA.
222. Polka Dots
223. Article One.
224. Everyday Sunday.
225. PostSecret Sunday Secrets.
226. Weird Al
227. Bibles :)
228. Jones Soda.
229. Printers.
230. Plaid.
231. Pants.
232. hangers.
233. Headbanging to talk radio.
234. Camp Friends.
235. Personal space.
236. Sweat Pants.
237. Basketball shorts.
238. Classes
239. Freedom.
240. Sex.
241. Smiles.
242. Blog comments.
243. Leftys’
244. Delaneys
245. Kaylenas’.
246. Merediths’.
247. Condoms.
248. Health.
249. Roomates.
250. Full Baths.
251. People who are still reading this list.
252. Post Secret.
253. Fingers.
254. Toes.
255. Boobs.
256. Ears.
257. Earrings.
258. Digestive System.
259. Libraries.
260. Blankets.
261. Vaginas.
262. Tampons.
263. Macs.
264. Belts.
265. Shoes.
267. Books.
268. Bookstores.
269. Toilets.
270. Sandpaper.
271. Toilet paper.
272. Knees.
273. Keyboards.
274. Love.
275. Twenty Five to go….wooot. You still with me?
276. Backpacks.
277. Jesus.
278. Casting Crowns.
279. CCF.
280. Hot Air Balloons.
281. Popcorn.
282. Adobe.
283. Clockys.
284. Moos’
285. Cats.
286. Dogs.
287. Ink.
288. Pink.
289. Belonging.
290. Liz.
291. Hairbands.
292. Sticky Tack.
293. Command Hooks.
294. Poster Puddy.
295. Batteries.
296. Purple.
297. Ice Cream.
298. Ice.
299. Massages.
300. Heating pads.

If you read all 300 kudos to you.


PS: Any duplicates in this list I don't want to hear about. I wrote this over a period of like three weeks.

You belong to me.

You Belong to Me
Grey Holiday

You run, you hide
As tears fall from your eyes
They fall like snow
From a wounded soul
You hold inside
The hurt of great divide
The hole is starting to get old

So come back to the light
To the love, you will find
It’s been here all along
So come back to the start
And you’ll find in your heart
That you always belonged
To me

Just take the rope
I won’t let it go
Give in
We can start again
I’m life, I’m hope
And I’m ready to explode
With how bad I want you back home

You’re my daughter, you’re my son
You’re the one I long to love
And you’ve heard I chose to die
Do you know you’re the reason why?

Life on the fourth floor and then some.

So I am on the fourth floor of my dorm. And thank God we have elevators. But to get into my dorm is a task worth noting. I walk in the front door. I unlock the door to the elevator, or the to the stairs. I get myself up to the fourth floor. I then unlock a door to get into my unit (consists of two wings) of the fourth floor. After I do that I unlock my wing door. Then I get to unlock my dorm door.

And for the record Vincennes, Indiana has the most trains per capita. If you leave town for any reason, you hit trains. Its the only place in the US that you can use a train stop as a make out sessions.


National Hopeline Network

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Post Secret Sundays

" You, Me, Easy"

I wish it was easy.

Friday, August 15, 2008


And I have pictures.

This is our bathroom. Be jealous all you silly IWU kids who don't have a tub.

This is our room. The wall that the beds are against the outlets don't work against that wall. but we're working on that.

This is my bed. And yes I did make it right before I took the picture.

This is my desk and drawers. Yep mine. I don't share with anyone.

This is the dresser I brought and our mini-fridge. Note the mess of cords on top of the fridge.

And this is is MY closet. All mine. haha.

My roommate's name is Angel and is pretty much like me. Chill, fun, random. In other words we're cool. My suitemates are nice and we are going into town today to get some stuff for the bathroom. Our outlets are getting fixed. And it's all good in the hood :). K I have to go buy books.


Wednesday, August 13, 2008


I leave tomorrow morning. EPPA! I scurred. Part of me is so not ready to leave home, to leave my bedroom, and my stereo system and my kitty and my life. But the other part is so ready to leave this town and trade it in for another smaller town.

To the poeple in my life who have been my rocks you know who you are:
Keep your phone lines open, for I know I will be depending on you now more than ever. Be ready for my texts, and phone calls, and emails, and facebook messages. Keep loving me and praying for me like I know you do already. I love you all of you. In the same way that you'll be keeping your phone lines open, I'll keep mine open.

I know I'm going where I'm meant to go for now. And I know that I'll be fine.

OK thats it for now. Cramps are attacking me.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008


"I knit baby sweaters while watching porn."

So I feel this should be talked about. Not gonna lie, I think this is hysterical. I also think it speaks pretty strongly to the quality of this persons porn that instead of doing....well other things, that while watching porn they are knitting. I once heard on Oprah that if you spend more than five minutes watching porn and you aren't otherwise busy, you need new porn. So maybe this person should get some new porn.

PostSecret Sundays (errr tuesdays)

" I wish I had never taken you for granted. Yur leaving for college in less than a month. I love you"