Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Christmas and things.

Wow, I haven't updated in a while. So Christmas is coming, and I have been wasting lots of time adding things to my wish lists. I am really excited about lots of things. The most obvious is christmas. Another is getting my new cellular device, which I should get any day now. Also, no schoo, always a plus. Also I get to see friends I have not seen in way to long, that'll be amazing. And I think that I might be the thing I am most excited about. Oh and another, All of my bigger projects are due before break and not after, though I am not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. Finals are after break as well, not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing again. And somethign else that makes me really happy Jack Gardner has resigned as of Jan 2nd. So after break we'll have another principle. I hear it's a minoin of the state or of the super intendent though, that isnt so fun. Something else that doesnt make me so happy is the fact that I am sick right now, I have a cold.

Yeah that's about it.


PS: I love you.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Junoir Year

This is an update on the last post
Junior year

I crack my knuckles obsessively.
Church is my life.
I went through one more therapist after Brian till i quit.
I quit taking my ADD medicine.
My life revolves around music.
I have a cell phone.
I know where I want to go with my life.
I can do my own make-up.
I hardly ever speak to Gabby and Ann anymore.
I am now a gold Ragger.
I like short hair a lot more than I used to.
I have totally amazing friends.
I wear a watch from time to time.
I can stand pink now.
I less than three hot topic.
Dad got remarried.
I have a half-sister.
My taste in music has greatly expanded.
I'm quieter and louder at the same time.
I am still disorganized.
My handwriting is still chicken scratch.
I still ask the questions no one can answer.
I have gone through the SEALs program.
I have buried a friend.
I have written poetry.
I have loved and laughed and lived.
I have learned from my mistakes, well most of them.
I have forgiven.

that's all for now

Freshman Year

Two years ago.....Freshman year.

I was happy.
My best friends were Gabby, Ann, and Jo.
I was still seeing Brian.
I was confused about so much of the world.
My eating was mostly normal.
I was at Grace Community Church.
I was totally unsure about my faith.
Tad Mills was my youth pastor.
My life was simple then, not all confusing.
I was sooo sure of myself freshman year.
I thought everything would always be ok.
I never thought I'd wind up here, in this place.
I never dreamed of attending church regularly.
I didn't crack my knuckles.
I looked for the best in poeple, and myself.
I had no idea where I wanted to go with my life.
I was just a silver Ragger, and a poor excuse for a Ragger.

I think that's it for now.

<3 allie

Friday, December 01, 2006


This is my belated thanksgiving blog

Bethany- I <3 you. You are amazing. My hope for you is that everything works out. You will be ok. Thanks for putting up with me
Brandon- You were there for me when things were really hard, when it was really hard for me to trust a lot of people. Thank you. You always make me smile.
Angela-You make good drinks. Angela drinks are the best :) You entertain me.
John- You keep me sane-er. I am so freaking thankful for you.
April- I am so thankful for you it's not even funny. I love you more than more than you love your 10:30 snack. We need to make evil plots about Bethany soon.
Annie-You are freaking amazing.

And to the rest of you who I didn't feel like writing ones for.....I love you

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

So last night I walked into my brothers(Jack) room to get the cordless phone and on his bed I spied a light blue shirt with a tag " lounge fly." For those of you that aren't Hot Topic junkies, Lounge Fly is a Hot Topic brand. The light blue shirt that was on his bed was mine.....If anyone has any explanations of why it was on his bed like a pillow let me know. And by the way it isn't a shirt he could wear, It's a Juniors medium or large.


PS: I love you.

Monday, November 27, 2006



She never slows down
She doesn’t know why but she knows that
When she’s all alone it feels like its all coming down

She won’t turn around
The shadows grow long and she fears
If she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fears whispering if she stands she’ll fall down

She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She’s running from, wants to give up and lie down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

Thursday, November 23, 2006


I freaking love you all.

Thats all I had to say.

That and to say thank you :)

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

click me

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Friday, November 10, 2006

I love you because...

I love you because you know when to shut up.
I love you because you make me smile.
I love you because I can’t live without you.
I love you because you are real with me.
I love you because you don’t let me pass.
I love you because you love me.
I love you because you are my big brother I don’t have.
I love you because you pray for me.
I love you because you died for me.
I love you cause you tell me I’m not worthless.
I love you because I can cling to you.
I love you because my tears are in your hair and on your clothes.

I love you.

I felt inspired to post and say I freaking love all of you. Also because I don't have time for a long complicated post. If I am not on tonight it is because I have to driveat four with riley. at 6:30-??? I am going to IWU's play. and tomarrow I drive from eleven-noon. and at like 6 or 7 I have the high schools play, and in between that it's talk to phish food chocolate chip time.


Thursday, November 09, 2006


This morning I have realized what a complete bitch I am in the morning. This morning the dog was with us and whenever he would like get within two feet of me I pushed him right off of me, I was trying to get back to sleep yeh know. And I look really wasted right now too, more wasted than normal.

I freaking love all of you.

-<3 Allie

Monday, November 06, 2006

:O! This Blog has been hacked and made sexy by Beffy (knittery)

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Quiz thingy

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I dunno, press the button and find out."

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Thank you

Thank you all
Thanks for the prayers.
Thanks for the hugs.
Thanks for everything.
Thanks for offering me the shoulder to cry on.
Thanks for conuinuing to pray for me as well as ryans family and other friends.

I'm still a little unstable, but mostly better. It'll be a while before i'm myself again. Until then i'm gonna take it slow. Nights are even worse these days.

I freaking love all of you.

PS: Until further notice no one else is allowed to die.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Ryan Nolan Dean

I knew Ryan’s sister a lot better than I knew him. I always remembered him to be a prankster. He liked a good time. He once put chocolate icing under the door handles of Jessie and Jewel’s mustang, during the bonfire at his house. That started a prank war. I went to ATF with Ryan. All I know is that, he had something going on, something no else seems to know about. I know that something became unbearable for him. Maybe his family life, maybe it was school. This is one of the storms of life. The storms that blow through and make us wonder Why God? Why him? Why now? I don’t know why he did what he did. I will never know. Perhaps I don’t want to know. We just have to keep praising God through the storm. He will bring us through. He is greater than our pain. He is greater than our sorrow. He can hold us up when we can’t even hold ourselves up. He will carry us to brighter days.

Ryan will not be forgotten. He is loved. And he will be missed.

Tonight I’m going to the viewing, and tomorrow probably the funeral. It won’t be easy. But I feel like I have to, if for nothing else to be there and support Nicole (is it Nichole or Nicole?).
I love you all, more you than you can ever imagine.

Thursday, November 02, 2006


Who are the true freaks? Are they the emo kids who sit and sulk? Are they the goth kids who wear pants that set off metal detectors and black?

I think the freaks are those who do what they want, and don't care what others say. The ones who stand up for Jesus Christ and not care. The ones who don't let others get to them, or push down their beliefs to make those around them more confortable.

Who are the true freaks?

I will post what sparked this post later.


Sunday, October 29, 2006


Some of you know how all my DVDs were missing....
Well, today my mom went to help my grandmother clean out my uncles house....and she brought back a crap load of DVDs. Jack got first dibs on the first box and bag... he forgot a couple boxes, which had the best DVDs....I got the best. oh and Bethany I have a bunch of star trek DVDs do you want them?

Thursday, October 26, 2006


Friday, October 20, 2006

More hair pics

gangster me

My hair

Before the haircut.
After the haircut.

I have better after pictures but i need to upload them. I do like my haircut. It's just strange.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

KNitting needles
I want these.

Friday, October 06, 2006


SO allie most definitely is on honor roll this six weeks. Here is the breakdown of Grades

English: B
geometry: B
Evironmental science: A
AP US History: C( weighted so it counts as a b)
So my GPA for the six weeks is 3.125 . I rock I know.

The way I figure tucker and AP us will serve as a buffer for geometry to help my GPA.

Allie the yarnslut
* hugs*
PS: I will post a knitting update soon I promise.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Welcome to The world of allie.