Post secret Sundays

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

"None of the artwork made sense, but being there with you did."

I hope you remember all the times we went for coffee, and to the movies, and just out and about- because they are some of my most cherished memories.

Lessons from Lakewood

After finishing my second year as a Lakewood counselor a few lessons have been learned.

A) Counseling Camps is is the very best form of birth control.
B) Pink panties are overrated.
C) Shower time sucks for everyone-unless you're a counselor and use the showers in the Lodge.
D) Rules are meant to be bent,or flat out broken.

And I'm home!

So I'm home from church camp. W0ooo! It was fun. Most of the paid staff were worthless, but that is a different blog post all together.

I went into camp sick with a cold or something. And by the end of camp my voice was just totally shot-and still is. I was a floater at Lakewood this summer. I just went around and gave other counselors breaks from their kids. It was fun.

We got there on the 30th ,got settled into the cabin, some of the teens went for a late night swim at 11:30, nearly got caught, booked it back to our cabins. Later that night I also broke into my own cabin.

The next morning we ate breakfast, did a site tour with Monet(one of our directors), did a last minute q&a with her. Then we did this stupid game with the paid staff. After that we ate lunch with paid staff and went on a site tour with Alexis(the program manager). On the site tour with Alexis-uhm well it was interesting. She went over rules and stuff and quite a bit had changed from last year. This year there was supposed to be 2 counselors with kids at all times except for middle of the night bathroom runs, and if a camper ran off. Also we could no longer sit outside our cabins after the kiddos were asleep-granted one counselor was in the cabin. Cell phones were strictly prohibited this year-two weeks ago camp staff confiscated counselor cell phones,and for this week Monet went to bat for us and told Alexis that if her staff confiscated our cell phones we'd unvolunteer really fast. Alexis suggested that if one our campers falls out of their bed and is bleeding profusely we should do the 10 minute walk up to the Lodge, use the radio to radio for help- then run back to our cabin. If that had happened I would have called Monet from my cell and told her what had happened-rather than wasting those ten minutes.

There was also a whole lot of conversation on this tour about appropriate touch. The only appropriate touch was high fives and side hugs....which are great if you're working with high schoolers. But we were working with grades k-4. I don't know if any of you have ever walked with a kindergartener- but they hold an adults hand when they walk often. It's just how they walk. Picking them up, giving them piggy back rides, letting them crawl on us, letting them sit in our laps- it was all against the rules, and we still did it all. I mean if we had stopped them from doing that-they'd have been crushed and thought we didn't like them. Besides when they climb on us- it's the biggest ego boost ever. When Alexis was talking about appropriate touch one of the councelors kids was being held by Colleen and right as she had said you have to maintain boundries, the five year old kissed Colleens' nose. It was funny.

When Monet talked to us about the rules she told us to follow our best judgements and never be alone with a camper. My best judgement included not letting Alexis see the campers crawling on me.

It always amazes me when you see how long it takes the kids the attach to you. Dinner on the first night- we had only been with the kids for a few hours. One little girl, Katie, had wrapped her arms around my waist and wasn't letting go. She just dragged behind me when I walked. It was probably the cutest thing of the day. And the next day there were 6 kids around Justin doing the same thing. I remember someone asked about appropriate touch- and if this was appropriate. One little boy, Braxton, was in my group last year and was back this year. And every time he saw me, He ran up and jumped on me wrapping himself around me, and I didn't even have to hold onto him, he just latched on. I couldn't imagine if I had said to any of those kids,"No I'm sorry, I can't do this."

On the second day I went from activity to activity giving people breaks and helping out. In every group except the group was cabining with I found a camper I didn't like. The 5 girls and boys in my group I loved.

On the third day we did activities, and had a carnival. Fortunately for me the two boys who did the sponge toss where super hot, then after dinner the kids left. And I drank caffine, and ate pizza and did a dance. haha. It was a good week. I hope I get to do it again.

I am gonna go. But I'll blog about the paid staff at another time.

Sorry...

Sorry I've been absent this past week or so. I've had a crazy busy week. I'll update everyone on thursday. I leave for camp lakewood today. So yeah.

Post secret Sundays

"I am Beautiful"

Things I've learned from facebook

I learned two things from facebook today.

A) My penis is 5 inches long.
B) My boobs are average sized.

One of those is false.

Iherb.com Discount code

So I have an iherb.com discount code. And they sell lots of things-including Diva cups-So here is the discount if anyone is interested GUP284.

Yep yep :)

Edit: I do get iherb credit for everyone that uses my code.

Post secret Sundays

"Happy Fathers' Day from the girl you will never know thinks of you as a father"

Actually he probably does know(Hey John, I love you), he does now anyway.

Postsecret Twitter:"----Via Twitter-----
I realize now that Mom has always been enough of a Dad to fill the spot where you should've been. Happy Father's Day, Mom."

Amazed

Every now and then I have a conversation with someone struggling with their eating disorder or self-injury and it might be the same conversation that I've had with a million other people but the words never seem to work, they never seem to fit. And it always surprises me that there are no words. No matter many times I have the conversation, and no matter how many people I have it with- There are no words, I still never know what to say.

I'll probably never have the words to say in those situations, but if it stops surprising me that I don't have the words, then maybe I need to take a step back.

My 500th 501st post!!

This is my 500th 501st post. And in honor of achieving 500 posts- I'm posting about 500 things you probably don't know about me.

1) I brush my teeth in the kitchen, with hot water 90% of the time.

2) In my wallet there is a black condom, an apples to apples card, and a circle K coffee card.

3) I collect the plastic rings that come on some milk cartons.

4) I am OCD about my closet.

5) I have a secret code of sorts with a friend of mine and this is it: "+72)+_(++. (the period isn't part of the code). Can you figure it out?

New hair!

The story of my computer...

My computer has had some issues...It's been very sad.

Late last Friday night my power supply stopped working...So I called Apple Saturday morning and they sorted it out got a new one shipped out to me.

Saturday afternoon while I was using my brothers power supply, my battery said " not charging." and I reconnected it and rebooted and did a hard reset and nothing helped. So I called Apple and they told me after running some diagnostic checky thingy that my poor laptop battery was done working. They asked me I wanted to go ahead and order a new one then, or call back later. I called back later and ordered a new one.

Fast forward to Monday. I wake up early on Monday, so I'll be awake to sign for my new power supply. And I sign for it...And they have shipped the wrong thing...I'm not sure what they shipped me. I'll blog pictures of it later to see if anyone can identify it for me. I call them and tell them they have shipped the wrong thing- and the first phone call loses connection and he doesn't call me back like he is supposed to. So I call again and the second guy fixes and sends the right power supply out my way and tells me that I can keep whatever mystery item they send me. Once I figure out what it is, I'll sell it.

And my battery is still working- even though the lady said it wasn't working. I'm on the fence about returning the unopened new battery sitting in my living room.

And in case anyone was counting that was 5 calls to Apple in a matter of 4 days. I love Apples customer service...but not when the fates make me call 5 times in a week- or three times in one day for that matter.

Hey guys,
I see wicked today :)

new glasses-woo

Did I mention I've gotten new glasses? Well I probably didn't- saying my computer has been out of commission since Saturday- but that is a different story. But anyway here are pictures- forgive the wet hair that gives the allusion that my hair does something besides straightness. And yes I'm in the bathroom for these pictures.

My favorite postsecret ever!

sorry its sideways....I thought I rotated it.

"If you're looking for a sign, this is it. Do it. It will be amazing.